【我与新华网】我是新华一颗星
作者：耿丽娜
与新华网结缘，源于“神六”载人宇宙飞船的上天，这是令全中国人民振奋和让全世界关注的重大事件。但我在电视报道中看到，当天的新闻发布会上，新华社一位记者竟用珍贵的提问权，做了一个“你们有信心完成任务吗”废话般的提问；军报某记者拿着特意找出2003年某年某月的报纸说是“偶然见到”的报纸；某著名的电视人在电视的节目中教条式地采访，要求航天员用一句话总结一下上天的感觉，被两位航天员婉言谢绝。我感到历史进程已步入遨游太空的时代，而我们的记者还仍然搬用着多年不变的老一套采访方式，令人大倒胃口。
说写就写，立即动笔写了一篇小文，想鞭策一下某些媒体人的能力和素质。可文章写完了，往哪儿发呢？以往我写文章都是投往报刊杂志，周期比较长，而像这类时事性强、批评性的文章，不一定有媒体肯刊登。这时，我突然想到曾在新华论坛早就注册过的ID，因为工作忙居无定所而一直没有使用过。心血来潮，且发一个帖子试试，心里没有底，着实有点紧张。这种批评性的文章，何况还涉及到新华社的记者，新华网会发吗？
果然，出师不利。文章没能发出来，退到了个人回收站，理由是措辞不当，请修改后再发。我赶快按斑竹的意见重新审视稿件，修改了一些稍微激烈的言辞，又发了上去。很快，经过修改的稿子，在新华论坛发了出来，而且同时就有网友跟帖，对我提出的问题表示认同和支持。这让第一次在论坛发帖的我，感到新鲜和兴奋。不错，有点意思。论坛敢登真话，是可以让人畅说欲言的地方。这次的实践，使我对新华网有了很好的印象。从此，新华网吸引了我目光和关注。
随着手中的鼠标不断点击新华论坛的各个栏目，很快地对文化广场的《舞文弄墨》和《新华诗会》两个版面感了兴趣。受到网友们发在论坛中风格各异作品的感染，很容易受到诱惑的我，也有了写诗的冲动。坦率地说，除了少女时写过一些悄悄藏在日记里稚嫩的诗句外，自己从来没有创作过诗歌。当我把一首描写少女情思、少妇感伤的处女作《怀恋》发到网上之后，怀着忐忑不安的心情，目不转睛地盯着网页，急切地等待网友的反映，也做好了承受批评的心理准备。谁知这回竟是“马到成功”，诗得到了大家热切关注和好评，斑竹也鼓励性地把它放到了诗会页面右上角醒目的地方。初战告捷，我心里的兴奋劲就甭提了。
随着与论坛网友们交流的深入，诗友们不断给予我热情地支持和鼓励。论坛的诗意氛围，文友间心绪的碰撞，触动着我思维深处潜藏的灵感，激发了胸中涌动的诗情。使得我自由自在、无拘无束地在论坛相继推出《女人如书》、《爱在心中》、《我的廊桥遗梦》、《月光下的随想》、《野菊花》、《月光下的忧伤》、《杂家》、《怀念母亲》、《长征感怀》、《爱在灵魂的长廊》等二十多篇诗作。更是投入了极大的精力和热情，泡在论坛中和文友们尽情地畅谈交流。 酒不醉人情自醉。有一段时间，我简直到了走火入魔的地步，日日沉浸在诗意的境界里，吃饭、睡觉、走路、干活心里想的都是诗。写到抒情时，心旷神怡；写到伤心时，泪流满面；写到愤慨时，激越澎湃；写到得意时，手足舞之。我坐在电脑屏幕前一遍遍地朗诵着、敲击着、提炼着、修改着，进入了一种自我陶醉的癫狂状态。那种愉悦和畅快，不写诗歌的人是绝对体会不到的。
新华网是一个藏龙卧虎的地方，聚集着不少的文人墨客、学者、专家。他们用敏锐的目光，真诚善良的心呵护着我这位诗坛新手。有的网友在论坛的帖子里跟帖鼓励，然后又在论坛的短信中提出批评和建议，与我讨论，帮我修改作品。鼓励我按自己的风格走下去，并寄予厚望，期待着我这个诗歌的爱好者，能在诗的海洋里扬帆起航。
尤其让我感到珍贵的是，新华网的网友为我的诗歌作品唱和上来的，那些有感情、有形象、有色彩的华彩诗章，及行云流水般精彩、优美，意味隽永的散文和评论，成了我不可多得的精神大餐。两年来，论坛的文友唱和及赠于我的诗和文达百篇。也许，这才是我游历在新华网中得到的最丰厚的收获。
记得去年母亲节，我为论坛写了一首《母亲之歌》的诗篇。新华网摘选了其中几段配上精美的图片，制作成祝福母亲节特别的页面发在首页。一搜索，当即就查到全国有几十家网站予以转载。可见新华网在全国网站中之影响力和魅力。不过，因当时新华网的制作者没有署上作者的名字，至今我对此事还“耿耿于怀”。但令我心中高兴的是，毕竟，人们欣赏的是我诗中发抒的情感，而不是作者的名字。
有付出就有收获，我在新华论坛辛勤耕耘的同时，得到了大家的认可、推崇和喜爱，荣幸地被新华网的朋友们称为“诗人”。其实，能不能称为诗人，自己也不知道。因为我从来没有在诗刊杂志发表过诗歌作品，我从新华论坛起家，要说“诗人”的话，我就把自己戏称为“论坛诗人”吧。
一个人思绪聚集到一定程度的时候，需要释放的场所。我感到新华网的文化氛围、多数网友的人文修养素质，很适合我这个即有传统观念又有现代意识，不知天高地厚，唯喜随心所欲、信马由缰的人驰骋。于是，不管“潭”子里水深水浅，从随笔、杂谈、散文、评论、诗歌一古脑地扔到了网上。论坛成了我发表作品，经营文字一个不错的平台。特别是新华网的博客开办以后，写完作品，直接上传，方便快捷，图文并茂、华丽优雅，那是何等的潇洒。
虽然现在纸媒体经营的文化副刊委靡不振，版面逐年缩小。但在新华网的文化广场，文化副刊的内容却在这里得到了蓬勃的发展。文化广场所涉及的内容含盖面广，信息量大，且语言生动、文风活泼，说古论今、谈诗论画、风起云涌、色彩斑斓，一派盎然生机。成为了文学爱好者的一片热土和练兵场。而它最大的优点在于网友间的互动交流。近两年来，我共记录保存论坛、博客网友，在我发的帖子后面跟贴评论就有数千条。网友间款款的情意，闪光的思绪，成为我记忆文库里宝贵的资料。
新华网自1997年创办以来，从无到有、从小到大、成为在海内外具有重大影响力的新闻网站。新华网的发展离不开网友们的大力支持，更离不开优秀管理者英明的决策，及历届斑竹和工作人员所付出的辛勤劳动和奉献。我欣赏新华网干净、鲜亮、淡雅、简约的界面，及论坛清晰明了发贴、跟贴的格式。更重视政府办的新华网所拥有的资源和优势，这是其它网站无法比拟的。在倡导社会文明、和谐、共享、创造，科学与民主的理念下，新华网正敞开宽厚博大的胸怀,接纳和包容着八方来客。能在这里占有一席之地，我感到十分的惬意。
我于无意之间闯进了新华网，在这里耕耘着、收获着、享受着。网友幽谷听响曾在跟帖中写到：“新面孔耿丽娜，文笔了得，可望成为这里一颗耀眼的新星！”。是啊，如果把新华网比拟成灿烂的星空，那么我们众多新华网的网友，就是点缀这浩瀚星空中闪烁的群星。所以，用我的那首“著名”的诗《流星》，作为此文的收场，不失为最深情的结束语。——谁说流星划过/杳无迹/我已将它/镌刻在心海里//即便相隔亿万光年/也能收悉频传的磁波/发光的瞬间/我看见斑斓的绚丽//谁说流星划过/杳无迹/深情的诗行/谱写着/长长的记忆//纵然有一天/我们悄然离去/浩瀚的星河中/曾划过一痕/清凉的笔迹！
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【我与新华网】我是新华一颗星
作者：耿丽娜
【Xinhuanet and I】
I become a star of XinhuaNet
Geng Li Na
Fate conducted me to have a close contact with Xinhua Net.
The story begins with the successful spaceflight of our spacecraft《Shen-6》with two Chinese astronauts.
The flight appears to be a tremendous success! An heartening news for all Chinese people! It also attracted world-wide close attentions.
The news-conference was conducted on the same day.
I enjoy the program on my TV at first. But I was really astonished when I heard a question raised by one of the reporters of Xinhua News Agency:
“Aren’t you quite sure that you could accomplish such a difficult mission” ?
What a meaningless question he raised !! Everybody know that the chance of raising questions on such kind of press conference is luxurious.
The question raised by another reporter of a certain Military Newspaper was even more ridiculous!
He read a news report published on a newspaper of 2003-xx-month-xx-date:
“A certain famous TV worker asked the spaceman to conclude their feelings in space by one sentence”! But it was refused by the two astronauts.
I wonder : We had already enter the era of space-traveling, but the style of our reporters in gathering news remains unchanged in the past tens of years! Which seriously destroyed the appetite of listeners.
I believe it would be better to spur on the abilities and qualities of certain media person.
With such feelings, I wrote an essay. But I found soon that I’m facing a perplexing question.: Where should I deliver my essay?
I’m used to mail my writings to a certain newspaper or magazine. Only it takes a long time to be published.
Moreover, my essay is an article with live news characteristics and with criticisms!
Medias might not publish my essay!
I recalled suddenly that I had registered on line with Xinhua Forum.
I hadn’t delivered my writings there before.
Suddenly I was inspired by an impulse: I should try to deliver my essay to the Xinhua Forum! However I’m not sure what would be the response of the forum.
My essay is one with criticisms. Especially it concerns the behavior of a reporter of Xinhua news agency! Could XinhuaNet publish my essay? I wonder.
Just as expected, the essay was returned to my station of recovery. But I was asked to make some revisions to some part of my essay with inappropriate expressions. The revised manuscript could be sent to the Forum again.
I examined my manuscript again quickly and thoroughly, revised it according to the suggestion of Net Manager. Changed some contents with somewhat sharp meanings. After that, I sent it to the Forum again.
My revised manuscript was published on the forum very soon after it was sent! At the same time, comments of Net Friends appeared on the Forum. They agreed and supported the questions I raised.
I was much excited for my first attempt, and had a fresh feeling in my heart! Yes, it’s interesting to have such an experience!
The Forum is a place, where you could express freely to one’s heart’s content! After that practice, I have a quite good impression about Xinhua Net. It had won my close attention.
I clicked my computer mouse more and more frequently on the various bulletin board of Xinhua Forum. Two boards on the “ Square of Culture ” attracted my interest: “Wu Wen Long Mo ” and “ Xinhua Shi Huai ( A group of poem writers )”.
I was moved by so many works with different styles published on the board. I am a person, easily been allured, emerged the impulse of poem writing.
Frankly speaking, except those childish poem phrases I wrote but hidden in my diary books when I was only a young girl. I hadn’t written any creative poem.
The first poem I published on the Forum was my maiden work “Think”.It expressed the affection of girl and the sorrowful sentiments of maiden.
I felt uneasy and watched the Forum with fixed eyes with utmost concentration.
Waiting urgently the opinions of net-friends, and was ready to accept their criticisms .
Out of my expectation, I won success immediately. The poem won their warm and close attention and favorable comments. With the purpose of encouragement, Net-manager published and placed the poem on the eye-catching upper right corner of the page of poems. I won in my first trial! It was hard to express how excited I was!
With the progressing and deepening of inter-exchanges on the Forum with my net-friends, my poem-friends give me much enthusiastic support and encouragement. The poetic atmosphere on the Forum, the impact of state of minds betweennet-friends touched the inspiration deeply hidden in my thinking, and excited the poetic feeling in my heart. I published :《Woman is a Book》、《Love in my Heart》、《My Bridges of Maiden County》《Capriccio in the Moonlight》《Wild Chrysanthemum》、《Laden with Grief under the Moonlight》、《The Eclectics》、 《Cherish the Memory of my Mother》、《Memory of Chang-Zhen》and《Love in the corridor of Soul》etc, more than twenty poems one after another.
I devoted immense energy and enthusiasm, soaked myself in the Forum, exchange comments and talk freely to my heart’s content with net-friends with all my heart.
I was intoxicated, not by wine but by good will and tender regards of net-friends.
I was even infatuated in a certain period, immersed days and nights, in the realm of poem. Poems occupied my whole mind, either while eating, sleeping, walking or working.
I would be relaxed and happy, while creating lyric poems; shed sad tears, while writing poems with grieve contents; agitated while writing poem with indignant contents;and dancing when pleased with my creation.
I’ll sit before the screen of my computer, read loudly again and again, pressing the keyboard, extracting and revising my creation, intoxicated with self-satisfaction, and entered in a demented condition. Such cheerful and refreshing feeling could only be truly understood by a poem writer!
The Xinhua Net is a place with “dragons and tigers”. There gathered eminent writers, scholars and specialists.
I found that I was attended by their sharp vision, sincere and kindhearted. a new recruit on the poem forum. Some net-friends wrote their comments on the Forum to encourage me. They also send their short remarks on the Forum to criticize my work and gave their suggestions. They discussed with me, help me to revise my works. They encourage me to keep my own character, and place hope on me. Expecting I, a lover of poem would set the sails and navigate on the sea of poems.
For me, those gorgeous and sentimental poems、and those natural、and graceful essays、and comments were my precious spiritual food.
Within recent two years, one hundred poems and essays as chorus and gift had been written by net-friends on the Forum. These might be the most generous and bumper harvest I obtained while I travel on the Xinhua Net!
I wrote a poem《Song for my Mother》last year on the Mother’s Day and published it on the Forum. Xinhua Net made an exquisite response: Several selected paragraphs of my poem accompanied with a splendid photo compose a leaf of 《Blessing for The Mother’s Day》was published on the First Page of Xinhua Net.
At the same time, I found tens of net-stations in China reprinted it. It shows the nationwide influence and glamour of Xinhua Net among the Net-Stations. But I take the negligence of Leaf editor for missing my name on the published leaf in my heart.
But I am glad in my heart: I understand, people appreciate the tender affections expressed in my poem., not my name.
One’s pay-out accompanies returns. My diligent plough on the Xinhua Net had won approval、fondness and is highly esteemed. I feel honored that friends on the Xinhua Net call me a “poet”. As I hadn’t publish any of my poem creations on any Poem-magazine, I do’nt know whether I am a poet or not. If I am a “poet”, I would like to call myself a “Forum Poet” for fun.
When the accumulation of one’s thoughts reaches a certain level, a place for relaxation is needed.
The cultural atmosphere, the high quality and self-cultivationof most net-friends on the Xinhua Net makes the Xinhua Forum really a suitable space for me: a person with traditional conceptions and modern ideology, and a person confident and adventurous , likes to follow my own inclinations to ride freely my horse on it.
I don’t mind the deepness of the “pond”. Publish all of my creations: jottings、miscellanies、essays、commentaries and poems on the Net. The forum becomes a pretty good platform for me to publish all of my literature creations and to manage my works.
Especially, after the opening of Xinhua Blog, I could even publish my works directly on it. It’s so convenient and so fast、 and my literary works could with photos、splendid and graceful、natural and unrestrained!!
At present, the literal supplement of paper medias: news- papers、are suffering in a dejected and apathetic state, layout of it shrinks every year. But the contents of Literal square and Literal supplement on the Xinhua Net are developing vividly.
In the Literal Square and the Literal Supplement, the contents involved are wide, with large amount of information, vivid dialogue, lively literal style, discussing ancient and modern, talking about poems and drawings, as blowing wind and gathering cloud, colorful and overflowing with vigor. It is a warm place and drill ground where gathered people devoted to literature with tremendous enthusiasm.
It’s strongest point is built upon the intercommunications between net-friends. In recent two years, I had recorded and preserved thousands of comments about my works written on the Forum and Blog by my net-friends. Their tender regards and brilliant ideas are precious materials keep in the literary stock of my memory.
Since 1997, the foundation year of Xinhua net, the Net developed from a small site into a big one. Now it is a news- net with weighty influence either domestically or overseas. It’s development couldn’t deviate from the energetic supports from the Net-friends. Moreover, couldn’t deviate from the brilliant strategic decisions of their outstanding managers, and also the diligence and contributions of all previous Net managers.
I appreciate the clean、bright、simple and elegant、succinct interface of Xinhua Net and it’s clean and simple message format. Moreover, I think highly about the resources and superiority Xinhua Net possessed as a Net Station conducted by the government. Which couldn’t be compared by other Net Stations.
With the concept of initiating a society of civilization, harmony, share together, creation, science and democracy, Xinhua Net open their broad and wide chest, accepting and embracing their guests from all directions. I am much satisfied to have a place here.
I came across the Xinhua Net in random. I ploughed and gethered my harvests, enjoyed on it. A net-friend 《You Ku Ting Xian》wrote in his comment:.Geng Li Na, a new face, with extraordinary writing capacity, would become a brilliant new star here! Oh yes, if we suppose the Xinhua Net is the brilliant starlit sky, then so many net-friends on the Xinhua –Net would be the sparkling stars in this vast sky embellished with these stars.
Now I would end my work by my“《Well-Known》”poem :《Shooting Stars》. As a conclusion with profound sentiments.-------No matter who says: that the flash of meteor left no trail.
I had engraved it in the ocean of my heart
Although it is remote from me with billions of light years
Anyhow I could receive electromagnetic wave frequently there transmitted
At that instant it flashes
Splendid and Brilliant I had seen
No matter who says :that the flash of meteor left no trail
Sentimental poems with deep emotions
Compose
deep and long lived remembrances
Although there would be one day
We would leave quietly
In the vast starlit sky
Had been a trace
Of a cool and refreshing written mark