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艾滋病感染者阿馨:深入了解艾滋病后有了新生活
时间： 2010-12-18 11:28:14 来源： 广西新闻网 徐哲
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关键词： 阿馨 艾滋病感染者 艾滋病的症状 确诊 感染艾滋病
内容摘要: 阿馨说她身体没有再出现症状，对艾滋病的了解也逐渐深入后，她的心慢慢平静了。在这几年里，阿馨在自治区CDC艾滋病门诊认识了不少艾滋病感染者，见到有刚确诊的感染者情绪低落，阿馨会上去进行劝说、解释。
采访时间：12月12日下午
采访地点：自治区疾控中心的一间医生办公室
受访人物：阿馨，40岁
记者在医生办公室等了一会儿，阿馨就出来了。她站在医生的旁边，戴着无框眼镜，穿一件素色毛衣，头发整齐地梳着。她给人的印象很文静，像一位小学或中学老师。而她，就是记者即将采访的艾滋病感染者。
虽然见过、采访过多位艾滋病感染者和病人，但和阿馨交流时，记者还是有一点紧张，不知道她能不能说出自己从不敢说的秘密。然而，记者的担心多余了，阿馨很配合，她的叙述让记者走近了一个在黑暗中独自抽泣的女人。
晴天霹雳：
自己和儿子都感染了艾滋病
阿馨以前的生活是充满阳光的。
她的生活发生改变始于2005年底。
当时阿馨感冒、发烧持续了两个月，症状时好时坏。到一家医院治疗时，医生验血说白细胞过低，咳嗽这么长时间，有可能感染了结核，叫阿馨到南宁市四医院检查治疗。四医院是传染病医院，自己不会是感染了别的什么病吧？阿馨偷偷在网上查了艾滋病的症状，感觉自己的情况和上面说的类似。不过怀疑很快又被自己否定――自己不吸毒，又没有乱性，怎么可能感染艾滋病呢？
在挣扎犹豫了近一个月后，阿馨最终去自治区疾病预防控制中心（CDC）进行检测。一个星期后，CDC的咨询员打来电话叫阿馨去面谈。来到CDC，一张确诊检验报告书击倒了阿馨，艾滋病病毒阳性！这意味着阿馨感染了艾滋病病毒。
“我只谈过两个男朋友，从没有恶习，怎么会感染艾滋病。”阿馨的眼泪大颗大颗地掉下来。
从CDC出来，阿馨的脑子还是一片空白，回家坐公交车都坐过了站。第二天，阿馨赶紧把才两岁的儿子送到疾控中心检测，一个星期后结果出来了，儿子也感染了艾滋病病毒。
阿馨不相信这是真的，但白纸黑字检测报告又明确告诉她，这是真的。
人生改变：
她经历了生与死的考验
病痛很快就来临，巨大的打击使阿馨的免疫力急剧下降，2006年2月，阿馨因结核病住进了南宁市第四人民医院，在吃抗结核的药后，又出现了皮疹。结核病还未好，又得了脑膜炎，疾病向严重方向发展。
在确诊感染艾滋病之前，阿馨是个白领，收入可观，不仅自己够用，还照顾家里人。确诊之后，这一切都没了，没有工作，没有收入，靠家人照顾。刚开始时，阿馨不知多少次在夜里暗自哭泣，她不知道自己带着儿子怎么办，不知道自己还能活多久。“现在这条命是医生抢救回来的。”阿馨说，在确诊感染艾滋病后，自治区CDC的咨询员就将她介绍到无国界医生开的诊所进行免费抗病毒治疗，在医院抢救的费用也是无国界医生出的。
支撑阿馨活过来的是亲人的关心。在阿馨住院治疗期间，她的哥哥、姐姐轮流来照顾她，让阿馨很宽慰。阿馨说，如果没有亲人在身边，自己可能就走了。
经历了生与死的挣扎之后，阿馨才意识到，当初第二个男朋友死活不让她生孩子的原因：他一定知道自己感染了艾滋病。当初得知儿子也感染了艾滋病后，阿馨特别恨他，几年过去后，这种恨却没有了。阿馨说，其实他也很可怜。
阿馨说她身体没有再出现症状，对艾滋病的了解也逐渐深入后，她的心慢慢平静了。
重拾信心：
愿为防艾做力所能及的事
阿馨认为，在一般人的观念中，艾滋病总是与见不得人的乱性和吸毒紧密相关，对艾滋病的污名化已深深地植根在人们的观念里。如果大家对艾滋病都有一定的了解和认识，就会知道艾滋病其实就是一种疾病。但目前能做的，就是让更多的人来认识艾滋病，至于消除歧视，则很难做到。
在这几年里，阿馨在自治区CDC艾滋病门诊认识了不少艾滋病感染者，见到有刚确诊的感染者情绪低落，阿馨会上去进行劝说、解释。“他们的感觉和心情，我也经历过。”阿馨说，有一个女性在不知情的情况下，将艾滋病感染给了丈夫，后来两人虽然没有离婚，但她丈夫经常打她，“每当这时，她都会打电话向我哭诉，我会在电话里安慰她。感染者的心理压力都很大，我也是受到自治区CDC和无国界医生的帮助，才树立了生活的信心，所以我很愿意在防艾上做力所能及的事。”
阿馨说，自己和普通人是脱离的，很少和普通人交流，因为怕被人知道自己是一名艾滋病感染者，“我们只会自己交流，相互诉说心里的苦闷和生活上的一些开心事。”自己所盼望的，就是能尽快将根治艾滋病的药物研制出来。
阿馨说，现在她每天都学一点养生知识，吃什么有营养，对身体有帮助，她只想过好每一天，好好陪儿子。
A Garden of Hope AIDS: a new insight into life after AIDS
Time: 2010-12-18 11:28:14 Source: Guangxi News Xu Zhe Keywords: A Garden of Hope symptoms of AIDS AIDS AIDS diagnosis
Abstract: A Garden of Hope, said she no longer physical symptoms of AIDS is gradually in-depth understanding, her heart slowly calmed. Over the years, A Garden of Hope CDC AIDS clinic in the autonomous region a lot of AIDS awareness, to see a newly diagnosed infection depression, A Garden of Hope at the meeting to be to persuade, explain.
Interview Date: 12 December PM
Interview Location: Autonomous Region in a doctor's office CDC
People interviewed: A Garden of Hope, 40 years old
Doctor's office and other reporters in a while, A Garden of Hope came out. She stood beside the doctor, wearing rimless glasses, wearing a plain sweater, her hair neatly combed. She gives the impression of a very quiet, like a primary or secondary school teacher. And she is interviewed by reporters about AIDS.
Although seen, interviewed several of AIDS and the sick, but the exchanges and Ah Hing, the reporter was a little nervous, not knowing she could not tell their secret from not say. However, concerns about journalists redundant, Ah Xin is with her statement to a reporter approached a woman sobbing alone in the dark.
Bolt from the blue:
Himself and his son were infected with the AIDS
Ah Xin previous life is full of sunshine.
Changed her life began in late 2005.
A Garden of Hope was a cold, fever lasted for two months, the symptoms of good times and bad. To a hospital for treatment, doctors said a blood test low white blood cells, cough for so long, there may be infected with tuberculosis, Jiao Axin to four hospitals in Nanning City for examination and treatment. Four hospitals for infectious diseases hospital, he will not be infected with the disease else, right? Ah Xin secretly checked on the net symptoms of AIDS, the situation and feel similar to the above said. But doubt was soon denied by their own - they are not drugs, there is no gender confusion, how it may be infected with HIV?
Hesitation in the struggle for nearly a month later, Ah Xin end to the regional Centers for Disease Control (CDC) for testing. A week later, CDC counselors called Jiao Axin to the interview. To the CDC, an inspection report confirmed down Ah Xin, HIV-positive! This means that A Xin infected with the AIDS virus.
"I only talked to two boyfriends, never vice, how HIV infection." Ah Xin's tears big stars big stars to fall off.
Out from the CDC, A Garden of Hope's mind was a blank, took the bus back home have been on the station. The next day, Ah Xin quickly to just two years old son to the CDC test results came out a week later, the son also infected with the AIDS virus.
A Garden of Hope does not believe this is true, but in black and white test report also explicitly told her that this is true.
Life changes:
She went through the test of life and death
Pain coming soon, a huge blow to the sharp decline in immunity A Garden of Hope, February 2006, A Hope for tuberculosis was admitted to the Fourth People's Hospital of Nanning, in the anti-tuberculosis medicines to eat after the rash appeared. TB has not been good, but also had meningitis, a serious disease to develop in the direction.
Before the diagnosis of HIV infection, A Garden of Hope is a white collar, income substantial enough not only to themselves, but also to take care of family. After diagnosis, all gone, no job, no income, by family members. At first, I do not know how many times Ah Xin secretly in the night crying, she did not know how to do with his son, not knowing he still long to live either. "Now this is a doctor salvaged Mania." Ah Hing said that in the diagnosis of HIV infection, the Autonomous Region CDC counselors will introduce her to the MSF clinic open for free anti-viral treatment, the cost is in the hospital MSF out.
A Garden of Hope support relatives back to life is concerned. Garden of Hope in Afghanistan during the hospitalization, her brother and sister take turns to take care of her, A Garden of Hope is very relieved. Ah Hing said that if no family around, he might left.
After struggling through a life and death, Ah Xin realized, had a second life and death of her boyfriend would not let her children's cause: he must know they are infected with AIDS. Had learned that his son is also infected with HIV, Ah Xin particularly hate him, a few years past, this kind of hate do not. A Garden of Hope, says that his very poor.
A Garden of Hope, said her health no further symptoms of AIDS is gradually in-depth knowledge, her heart slowly calmed.
Regain confidence:
AIDS prevention is willing to do whatever things
A Garden of Hope believes that the concept in general, AIDS is always shady and drug use disorder closely related to the stigma of AIDS has been deeply rooted in people's view. If you have some knowledge of AIDS and awareness, you will know that AIDS is actually a disease. But can do is to let more people to understand AIDS, as the elimination of discrimination, it is difficult to achieve.
Over the years, A Garden of Hope CDC AIDS clinic in the autonomous region a lot of AIDS awareness, to see a newly diagnosed infection depression, A Garden of Hope at the meeting to be to persuade, explain. "They feel and mood, I have experienced." Ah Hing said, there is a case of women in the knowledge, the AIDS infection to her husband, then the two although not divorced, but her husband often beat her, "Every When this time, she would call me crying, I will comfort her on the phone. infected the psychological pressure is enormous, I am also subject to regional CDC and MSF's help, it set a confidence in life, so I AIDS prevention is very willing to do able to do. "
Ah Hing said he and ordinary people are out, and very few and ordinary people exchanges, because people know he is a fear of AIDS, "we only have yourself to communicate with each other to tell the heart depression and some fun in life thing. "own hope for is that we can cure AIDS as soon as possible out of drug development.
A Garden of Hope, said she now learn a little bit every day, health knowledge, what to eat nutritious, good for our health, she just want to live each day, good with his son.
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